It’s been a month since my last post and I have to admit that I haven’t really made much progress on the creative front. Though the Christmas break has proved to be a great respite from the demands of working during a pandemic, I don’t feel as bouncy as I usually do post New Year’s Day. The trepidation of what the new year will bring may be contributing to this, but it feels like much more than that. I am sure I am not alone in finding it a challenge to get going again. There’s something about winter that calls for a much slower pace once the year end has permitted it, but this year I simply don’t feel like I have rested quite enough. I am definitely not ready to pick up the pace again – yet.
I read something that resonated like the deep sound vibrations of a rather large gong this week. It was one of those ‘New Year’ self-help posts that littered newsfeeds in the first days of 2022 – except this message was different. In place of the ‘become a better you’ focus, this post was acknowledging that following another challenging year that the last thing we need right now is to introduce new ones. In fact this could prove counterproductive and demotivate us further. Now the premise of this post is to get us to download a free mindfulness app, which might well appeal to many right now and I don’t think would be a bad idea under the circumstances, but for me it was the confirmation I needed permission to’ just be’ for a little while longer.
And it struck me how fond we are of placing expecations on oursleves that we wouldn’t impress on anyone else. And depsite shunning the general social media messages that in my view peddle an ‘acceptable’ yet often unattainable lifestyle, I wonder how much of this ‘need to be always working towards something’ is perpetuated by it. And so, although there are things that I would like to change about my life this year, I don’t feel this is exclusively something that needs to happen right now, or even in the immediate future. That said, it is important not to feel ‘stuck’ in one place. With this renewed perspective I feel 2022 might be all about rebalancing our lives and that the changes we make will link in with this.
My head became clearer the minute I realised that I could allow myself to lighten my load. Losing a handful of commitments was all it took really, and now this will give me the space to make the necessary adjustments to bring the balance back. Cancelling plans and backing out of projects is not something that I find easy, but I have got so much better at recognising how much time and energy I have to expend and where I should be chanelling it. There have certainly been some new priorities that have arisen over the past couple of years for us all, one of these for me is to work out how to build on the success of Bee Creative and what form this will take. It’s been niggling away at me since the summer, but I know I will find a solution.
But for now, whilst the equilbrium is restoring itself I am taking all the time I need, because quite frankly that would be the advice I would give to others. This January is a month to be gently inspired, not pushing to try new things, an opportunity to ‘meet ourselves exactly where we are,’ to continue the ‘wintering’ theme until our winter is over and surrender to our intuition enjoying more moments of calm. The world has changed, but so have we. We need to allow ourselves time to accept and adapt to these changes and take what we need to from them, then discard the rest and move on. I am excited to see how things will unfold as the year progresses.